Thursday, November 8, 2012

Life can be a CHALLENGE!!

Oh man, am I ever Breathing In The Moment.  Each day I look for a blessing, because truly right now, I find it hard.

I have stuck to my Advocare 24 Day Challenge, and am still seeing results.  Do I have pictures to show you?  No... sorry friends.  I am officially down 9 pounds in 18 days!  I am ecstatic about that for sure, and my clothes are starting to fall off!  Yahoo!!

Did  I have any slips?  Maybe once.... but nothing big at all!  I can TRULY honestly say, I LOVE ADVOCARE and it IS changing my life!  I do not crave the garbage I used to call food, nor do I even have the slightest want for Starbucks.   

If I came out of this whole challenge with one thing, it would be the energy, and the ability to give up Starbucks.  I was putting so much bad crap into my body every. single. morning!  And I thought I needed it to survive my day.  Boy was I wrong.
18 Days without any outside source of caffeine.  It's me and my Spark baby!  I'm darn proud of that.

Onto to the less exciting news.  I went to see a specialist about my "situation" as my primary care physician requested, and of course it was no good.  Not saying there is anything wrong with me, but I have to have further testing.

I have not decided how into detail I really want to go on the blog, so bear with me for a bit.  I had my blood work done on Tuesday, and this coming Monday I get to go have a more invasive procedure done.  As soon as I have answers I will absolutely share it all with you.  Maybe not in full detail, because let me tell you....  THIS IS HARD!!!  I feel like less of a person, doing the things I am having to do.  And I just want it to be over already.  On the bright side, I get Monday off of work!

I am also having a bit of buyers remorse, and that was until I had a great pep talk from a great friend. I found out today that my insurance requires my deductible to be met in order to have the procedure.  Well that's another $800 out of my pocket.  I feel horrible taking that money away from the family, and felt like I should cancel my appointment.  Almost as though I felt I am not worth the money.

My dear friend reminded me that I went to my regular Dr, who then referred me to my specialist, who then decided I needed all of this done.  Ok, fine she is right.  But what if it's nothing?  That is my worry.  Do I really need to do this?

The final answer is of course YES.  There is no way to really know whats going on inside my body without this procedure.  They will knock me out, and figure it all out within an hour.  Doesn't sound too bad right?  Agree with me please because this is taking all I've got, not to freak out.

I have a great life, a great job, great kids, amazing husband, wonderful friends, a supportive family..... so why this, and why now?  Right when I was taking charge of my own life, WHAM it's like I am knocked down again.  I want to get back up, and run the other way.  I want my life back, and I want it now!!

I am ready, and I have been ready for the last 18 days.  I have done so well, and I am proud of myself.  And I know my husband is proud of me too.  So come Tuesday (we can pray) I am hoping I have answers and can move on.   By that day, I WILL have final "After" photos and 24-Day Challenge RESULTS!  Yep, my challenge is almost over.  I have NEVER been able to stick to a fad "diet" and I must tell you... this has been the easiest thing I have ever done.

I plan on doing the challenge all over again in January, but in the mean time, I am going to be continuing the Advocare products and my healthy lifestyle.  I will also add in exercise as long as the body allows.

I appreciate all of your support, truly and sincerely from the bottom of my heart!  It keeps me going on my journey!

Hugs to you all.  I will try to keep my chin up and find my blessings each and every day.  

Here is one of my favorite songs that I leave you with tonight, enjoy!

1 comment:

  1. Jen,
    May you be filled with His pace and love. Hugs to you my friend.